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Tuesday, January 30, 2007 @ 3:09:00 PM
Made certain life changing decisions yesterday. talked with jui peng abt what i decided.... haven told anyone abt my final plans. but if possible i would like no one to know abt it until it is made. by the time i am already gone and never can be found.i have no idea why i want such such drastic change but i definitely think it is the better. i have enough, my heart cant take it. so why? she is back and then there's another gal. i desperately want us to be strangers. i really hope he could tell me that he wants us to be strangers then it is easier that way. haix. blame it all on me. haha....
anyways. lets start with the little step getting the letter. dunno if it is easy. haix. it is just too late.
Thursday, January 25, 2007 @ 8:23:00 PM
OOOOoooOOOh.. tomorrow is the 26TH!!!! I have no idea i am happy or sAD or just nervous... the BIG day is tomorrow... wahaha... the flu bug must have gotten me crazy. oopx. anywayz, i dun wan tomorrow to come nia. haix. wth. tomorrow will be the day where all my hopes will be dashed. sia lahx. all accountants shld be cautious and pesimistic in accordance to the principle of prudence/conservatism... lols. this is a life example of studying too much. oh my! not to forget my hols are coming!!!!! yipppeee... sooooooooooooo gooooooooodd! hehex.
i am goin out with liyana tomorrow~ haha.. so missed her! hang in there gal! jiamin is coming to the rescue! haha... gotta start on my miec homework le...
Labels: fear, happiness or sadness?
Wednesday, January 24, 2007 @ 10:53:00 AM
Worked split shif yesterday. it was a disastrous morning. i was feelin light headed even in the afternoon. could just feel my legs will give way any moment... but in the end it was ok le... but stil a bit giddy.... and got scolded by jasmine twice cos a bit blur today... haha... then after work we went to eat at the coffee shop and tok abt army life. it was so damn funny... wahaha....
i am recovering from the flu alr but still feel disgusting.. hope can recover soon!
i am so looking to this fri. i have no idea why. but one thing is i am goin out with Liyana... loved her always. and yah it also represents the end of my friendship with him. i think the direction we are moving towards is stranger. i dun mind. really. cos with or without him it is still the same. let nature takes it course rites? we would eventually become stranger. cos he doesn't give a damn. but hey. i dun give a damn anymore. this decision was made on sun... haha.. kinda sudden but it is better than draggin on. he doesn't treasure me. so wth rites? lols...
Sunday, January 21, 2007 @ 9:37:00 PM
BOoo.... i am tired out... i want a long break? can i? do i deserve one? i have not finish my miec article sia.... bleahx....
Wednesday, January 17, 2007 @ 9:06:00 PM
I had a fairly unlucky day. haha... first got a blue black while i was rushing to sch... bleahx... then...
cats lesson. it was goin great cox i was crappy today, but then something really wrong happened nia... we were discussing about our 'creation' when wenli from my grp suddenly had a tantrum. it was so ridiculous! imagine i was explaining nicely to her abt my idea then she is like screaming her head off.. even the teacher was shocked... so why bother quarrel with her? i simply kept quiet throughtout the lesson... dots...
after that was S and W.. hehe... got really scared cox it was our attachment... haix... then got a lot of pro... like our team wasnt cooperative and we were all doin our own stuff.. haix... could tell anne was a bit pissed... and got knocked and hit by ppl... and the most not funny thing was that i actually did a stupid in front of my whole grp... which caused them to laugh for at least 15 mins? haix.. diaox... haha... even i cant forget...
@ 9:51:00 AM
If ppl are busy, i would rather they forget me... haix... wth... bleahx...
Tuesday, January 16, 2007 @ 10:15:00 PM
Today was just wonderful. lesson ended at one then went to orchard with weiting. it has been such a long time since i went out with her! our first stop was the food culture at wisma to try their tom yam soup... it is super nice lahx... hehe... but i still have some recollections. haix... bleahs.. anyway after dinner we went to buy bubble tea cox i felt like drinking it, then went to ngee ann to get the bubble tea then shop ard taka in search of a DKNY booth. we looked high and low left and right lorx. then when we finally gave up we found the booth. haha... then went to an armani booth cox i thought the armani code for women was kinda nice so i got one of those samples for weiting. she so like the perfume... hehe... then we went off to tangs to look ard... then went back to ngee ann... haha... stupid right? if i tell you the details i would be more stupid... dotx.
then i bought something and no i am dead broke.. haha... stupid rites? but the person gave me samples... ooh...
Monday, January 15, 2007 @ 12:30:00 PM
Just settled down at the np library level three. i am superbly crappy. It is a good sign lorx... balance is back... haha... i would say welcome to the old me! hahaa... me siao le. oopx. was surprised he called last night. din expect him to call. but things are still kind of awkward. time and patience, jiamin.
gonna make up tomorrow. din want to wake up this morning. feel so tired. haix. having ocom test later... it is pretty scary thinking abt it. but the fortunate thing is that i pass my bstats test! i got 41 /60. could have done better though. i always say that.
this week is gonna be a busy week. haix... booo.. hope i have more time. haven done
Sunday, January 14, 2007 @ 3:15:00 PM
i cant change my ways. ergh! why do i still like him after all he had done to me? wth rites? but no choice, i have learnt to accept it. i love him. alot. i really do. this explains why i cant stop loving him, thinkin of him. is this love. if it is i dun want to feel it so early, it bloody is disturbing. but i am embracing the fact that i still love him. i would continue doting him. why? i cant stop at all! maybe thats love. haha... why me? why now? shit man.
now we are still recovering. i can tell he is uneasy. come on. i am uneasy too. he doesn't express out. haix.. how cum things will end up this way. haix. i wanna forget. but i cant. haha...
for now, i will just keep quiet, be his support... boo... love him no matter what for he is my on and only baby.
i sound stupid isn't it? the arrows of cupid has made me this way, i am stupid and i admit it that i am stupid.
Labels: Stupid me
Saturday, January 13, 2007 @ 9:38:00 AM
i am so bored... the bad news is that i have to work today. how unfortunate can the day get. i dun like the fact that i am working today. because i am not ready to see him at all. why am i always pressed for time? i am working is because jui peng is sick. i am not ready nia. with him dun understanding me. it is such a bad thing. haix. i just have to lower my expectations like my friends say. the good thing is i can show off my makeup... wahaha...
anyway enuff of the bad things, we shld always look on the bright side. hope he does as he says. i dun want to repeat myself either. went to orchard to buy foundation. i must say that i had a fruitful harvest... haha... went to the MAC at Ngee Ann City. i wanted to buy a foundation but wanted to find out which shade suits me. haha got one of the guys there to try out for me. it all ended up trying the whole full makeup for me. the lipgloss, eyshadow and stuff. at the end of the 'makeup' session, i looked like nice nia... haha... bought lots of things from there... eeh... i know shld save my money le... hehe... then went home to trim my hair... wahaha... i dun like it. it is a bit short now. haix... i prefer it longer. haix... not goin to cut anymore le.
Labels: working today
Wednesday, January 10, 2007 @ 9:20:00 AM
It has been 24hours since he contacted me.... where is the heart of being friends. i wanna see if he really concerns me at all anot. i am not goin to contact him any longer le. i am sick of contacting him. maybe that is one of the main reason i feel so angry with him.... it is pretty sickening me... for me i have my own problems, i think it is getting out of hand but i dun think it will cause much trouble though. haix. why is he like that, i kind of hate him... i really wish he could call last night or something.. since he din call last night it doesn't, i think i cannot ever think abt tonight anymore or forever. it is no use le.yah i did not expected him to call like what my best friend says. dun put too much expectations le. i had enough. just letting it go.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007 @ 7:51:00 PM
Hello, had bstats today. it was disastrous... ergh... it is so disgusting... i am so goin to learn from liyana how to use dreamweaver to create blog... wahaahaa.... so cool rite? haha... i can only learn bloggie thingies from her... wahaha... i am goin to start working next week le... sat and sun bahx... cos weekdays i am pretty busy lehx... haix... i dun like to work nia... but for the sake of money i will persist... wahaha... i just love money... i am goin to buy MAC foundation soon... hehe....
Monday, January 08, 2007 @ 11:30:00 AM
ergh.. i really cannot stand my life now... sitting beside sabrina now... wahaha... i am so busy... haix. there is so many things to do but so little time. i hope i have more time and also for some support. i think i am going to break... it is so tiring... haix.... haix.... bleahx... just gimme a break...
Friday, January 05, 2007 @ 11:47:00 AM
i had one of the worst lesson yesterday--ocomm... it was disaster... we had one of those table-topics practice whereby we were given one topic or sentence to discuss after thinking through the question for onli a minutes. it really tests your critical thinking skills. it is so scary cos when it is your turn to speak your mind just blanks out. haha...at least i said something.
today is fri. yippeee weekend is here!!! i am so happy. but i am not happy about tomorrow. why cant things be te way it is now? at least i dun have to think that much.... then at least i can concentrate on my studies. i wish i could ignore all this. but it is just escaping my problems. ergh. seriously i dunno what would happen tomorrow. i soften easily. but my heart is so cold. i dun even noe if there are still feelings? i am happy with the way things are, without him in my life. at least all i can care abt is me! haha... there's so much i want to do. hmmm...
Wednesday, January 03, 2007 @ 11:18:00 PM
Just got back from work... got drenched by the rain by a bit and starting to feel alittle bit unwell... i cant imagine i still have to go to sch and work tomorrow, i cannot stand it anymore. i am goin to take a break. i dun care abt other ppl. if it means getting what i want i would do anything. first day at sch was ok. but doesn't seem to have the mood to care abt certain things. i really am turning cold. there's nth to tok abt anymore.... if anyone ask me why am i look so unhappy i am not goin to answer.
@ 10:45:00 AM
It hurts a lot from the start. but i am surprised how my feelings can come to a halt and not feel anything. may be it hurts too much to be true. i am certainly letting go of everything. i never want to get it back. it has been a rollercoaster ride for me. i dun want to slip back to that nightmare. i am not quiting suki. but goin to, it is just a matter of time... i dun want to work on weekends anymore.if he works on weekdays, thats it for me... i am goin to quit he can never see me again. it is time to move on. whether he likes it or not. he simply doesn't care about how i feel, he jus cares about how he feels, i guess all human are selfish. i had enough of him. i am not goin to think about his feelings anymore.